She will not leave me she will not leave me
She has gone but she will not leave me,
Once she was a daily rising that gave light to my world
But now she has left a sweet pain that soothes me when it burns,
Once she was the reason I looked forward to the darkness
To be touched, to be loved, to feel contrasted
But now I sit contrite questioning the everlasting.
It was surreal, beyond real, the substance of intoxication
And yet it was with sober minds that we connected in mutual fascination,
A promise, never stated, ill fated maybe so
The perfect tale of two lovers that longed to be told,
As my bones grow old they sag with desirous persistence
Like I’m dieing from a dangerous pleasure with an effect that won’t diminish
And I’m continuously caught in the middle between dreaming and non-existence.
Oh for a wish, or a kiss, or the medicine to forget
When tears douse flames will my face still be wet?
On the verge of a meltdown where loneliness makes me whole
I pray in absolute denial that sadness may purge my soul,
It was a long time ago but it still feels like now
And it is the beauty of memories that allows me to look from all sides
And remember that all is not lost as long as I know what I’m worth, deep inside.